Learning through my OCD

I let Grace paint my toes, she was so proud to make them so pretty! I know they are not summer ready, but she was so excited to do it!

My turn painting Grace's toes.

This is what Grace looks like while playing soccer the WHOLE time.

Here is my Jenni learning to drink her milk from the cereal bowl, at least she makes a mess look cute!

Prepping the nail polish!

My First School Mother's Day gift! LOVE IT!

Yes, I have OCD, I am OCD. Maybe not in the typical cleaning manic mode that you are more familiar with but I have an organizational OCD. I am a planning OCD person, however, since becoming a mom, I am learning to let things go and breath through it more than ever! I still stick to a pretty set schedule, for example, Monday’s I drop off Grace to school and then Jenni and I go grocery shopping. On Thursday’s I do the laundry. Why Monday and why Thursday, well this is how my mind works. I got grocery shopping for the week on Monday’s. The sales start on Sunday’s and I want to make sure I get what I need off of my list, with all of my coupons of course!! When something happens, like Grace has no school, I will just skip the grocery shopping for the next available day. After all it’s not like we will run out of food, I am OCD about having more then enough food, because when things are on sale I will stock up the pantry.

Then there is why I do laundry on Thursday’s, well in my head, I like to do laundry on Thursday’s because if we have things going on over the weekend, I will have those clothes that I need clean, ready to go and set to the side for that event. I know I could do it on any other day, but for me in my OCD head, that is just what works best. Sunday’s I cut and organize my coupons, Monday I use them, and then Thursdays I clean clothes.

I have OCD about playdoh colors not being mixed together, the AquaSand colors not being mixed together. I like my belongings in a certain spot, so that when I need it again in 20 minutes I will know where the hell it is. These are the my internal dealings that I am learning to let go, to breathe through, after all what fun is it for my kids to only use one color of playdoh at a time?!? I know that I am a Mom to teach my kids how to be good people and hope that I am raising them the best way I know how, but I feel like I get most of the days lessons, when they let me learn how to relax and have more fun then they do. These are the moments I feel like I am being the best mom I can be, by letting them be kids and have fun while doing it. As hard as it is for me to two three playdoh colors at a time, I do it because its what they want, it makes them happy, and in reality how much does another can of playdoh really cost?!?!? If I have coupon for it, its not that bad J

These are the things I am learning with my OCD, messes can always be cleaned, and it doesn’t even have to be cleaned right away. My kids love “free” toys, being boxes of any size, spoons and plastic bowls, and toilet paper cardboard rolls. Its ok if the crayons are not sorted or have sharpened tips, they just want to color. My biggest lesson, let them be themselves for very shortly, they will not need my help to open doors or buckle them in, so breathe through it if I have to, because tomorrow they might not want me to play playdoh with them anymore.